The Upper Hand #3

For much of 2023, I felt lost.

The balancing act of becoming a Dad, playing Poker professionally, wanting to study but feeling guilty about not hanging with my baby, making football content, transitioning into making new Poker content, trying to make sure everyone in the family saw the baby enough, trying to make sure I still spent time with my wife, deciding where we were going to live.

I’m well aware I’m not unique and everyone has these problems but I struggled with them.

Smashing crossiants every day in France for several weeks somehow didn’t make things better?

In fact I turbo put on 10kg.

WCOOP 2023 was when I realised I needed to make some big changes.

It felt like I was getting outplayed by Brazilians in $22 Tournaments.

FUCK THAT!

From 2019 to 2022 I smashed the game.

(If anyone is planning on giving up porn for 2024 - print this out, stick it up on the wall and thank me later)

How could my confidence be in the gutter after a couple of months away from the tables?

My wife (H) and I sat down for a heart to heart.

I needed clarity.

That night we made some big decisions on our future that had been really eating at me.

The football content I was making was a SMASH hit, hitting over 100 million views in 2023 but it had to go - it was a distraction.

H told me to write down what I needed to do to acheive our goals - in the simplest form.

1. Lose the weight I’d put on.

2. Get back to studying and playing more Poker.

3. Journal every day.

On the surface it seems a quite selfish list.

Where is spend time with my daughter? Be a good husband? Make time for my friends and family etc etc

The truth is, when I look after myself, I naturally look after everyone around me.

When I’m stuck in a little rut, I become more selfish.

In shocking news to absolutely nobody, my fortunes turned around rapidly with this change in mindset.

I Final Tabled the Sunday Million for the first time and followed it up by winning UKIPT Edinburgh and getting 3rd in the HighRoller in Nottingham.

€100,000 upswing to avoid my first ever losing year.

I’m just 2kg from my ideal weight, I study EVERY DAY, and I scribble a few words on paper daily. It may not seem like much to you, but I wholeheartedly belive that jouraling on paper is a genuine SUPERPOWER - try it before you laugh at me.

FUCKING CLARITY!

Talk tomorrow you beautiful fucks!