The Upper Hand #11

If you’re an only child, you’re most likely weird.

As one myself, I get to say this and you can’t be mad.

I AM WEIRD AS FUCK!

I HATE having to rely on other people to get ANYTHING done.

It’s not like I do everything perfectly or in a timely manner but if I’m going to fail or succeed at something, I want it to be because of me and only me!

In my one year of college, the group assignments were a living nightmare for me.

Listen, I was 100% the runt of the litter.

My college course was “Computing For Business” - I spent all day playing Poker in the lab whilst everyone else was learning to code.

Nobody wanted to be stuck with me BUT I STILL GOT MAD AT EVERYONE IN THE GROUP!

It’s something that has most likely cost me in the Poker world.

There’s very few lone wolves who crush the game.

The vast majority of players came up in a group, studied together, travelled together, swapped action together and moved up the stakes together.

I’ve got some great friends in the Poker world and I’ve mentioned countless times that I owe a huge debt to P-diddy aka TonkaaaaP aka Parker Tablot and BBZ in particular.

But I hate group chats and I hate studying with other people.

Meaning that I’ve been flying solo for years and years when it comes to getting better at the game.

The one area where I have to rely on other people is content creation.

Streaming on Twitch was a one man job.

Turn on your camera, open some Poker tables, keep hitting reg, chat absolute nonsense for 8/9 hours a day.

Rinse and repeat.

Do it everyday, and like a hamster on a wheel, if you keep pushing and don’t stop, you will build up serious momentum.

Simple.

After a series of horrendous decisions by Twitch and a ban on other forms of gambling, several people smarter than me told it’s time to get all my eggs out of one basket!

How hard can it to be to crack YouTube?

Turns out, pretty difficult.

Particularly for this weird only child that now needs to delegate.

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO EDIT VIDEOS OR MAKE THUMBNAILS DO I???

Talented creative people are incredibly difficult to find.

Talented creative people who communicate in a timely manner ARE THE RAREST HUMANS ALIVE!

UNICORNS!

1st EDITION, HOLOGRAPHIC, SHADOWLESS CHARIZARD!

If you’ve got one, hang on to them for dear life and DO NOT LET GO!

Their brains are wired different.

THEY DON’T HAVE SPACE IN THAT VIDID BEAUTIFUL IMAGINATION TO BE BOTHERED REPLYING TO YOU!

Deadlines? NEVER HEARD OF THEM!

Towards the end of 2023, I’d agreed a deal with an editor for 2024.

4 or 5 longform videos per week, starting January 1st.

It was all agreed and I sent over the first videos to edit.

After radio silence for a couple of weeks, he got back to me and told me he was going to South America for 6+ months and limited Internet access BUT MAYBE he could get 1 or 2 videos done per week.

Kid is 20.

How can I be mad?

He’s probably slurping on some ayahuasca as we speak discovering the true meaning of life.

It makes me want to learn to edit myself BUT HOW WILL I HAVE TIME TO DO THAT?

I won’t.

Where would I find the time?

I’m going to get in the gym with Ash Ketchum, stock up on Poké Balls and we’re going to catch a rare one.

I will crack YouTube this year.

If after reading this email, you’re not convinced only children are weird, I don’t know what to say to you.

Talk tomorrow you BEAUTIFUL Fucks!
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