The Upper Hand #32

The best version of myself did not show up today.

I played sloppy Poker.

There is nothing I can do about it now, except make sure it doesn’t happen tomorrow.

It’s hard to explain when you play badly.

There was 2 or 3 hands today, that if I watched my friends play, I’d ask them what the fuck they were doing?

Sometimes it feels like an out of body experience when the intrusive thoughts take over.

My internal monologue will go along the lines of alright, we just fold this hand, move on, wait, maybe I can play it? nah. let’s show some discipline and fold - “I’m all-in” comes the annoucement from myself. wtf are you doing??? well let’s hope they fold now, oh they already called, you’re out, nice one dickhead.

I’ve never talked to someone about this before, so I’ve no idea if it’s normal.

Probably not.

Last night I didn’t sleep well, so we’ll chalk it down to that.

Tomorrow is the EPT Main.

€5,300.

BIG BOY TOURNAMENTS!

I’m excited for it.

The structure is amazing.

It will take a full week to crown a winner.

Patience is required.

Let’s make it back to back Irish EPT Champions ladies and gents.

Bye for now, you BEAUTIFUL Fucks!

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